Letting it Go

I’ve had a hard couple of days, dealing with very unkind, inconsiderate and flat-out rude people. It felt like they all got together to dump their trash of thoughtlessness on me, all at once.

I’ve always tried to pride myself on being able to “not play ball”. I’ve visualized it as if the person that is unkind comes up to me and wants to play ball with me. The ball symbolized their anger, rudeness, etc. If I don’t catch or pick up the ball thrown at me – I don’t fight back, return rudeness or get upset – but stand there figuratively with my arms at my side, they give up, back down, feel silly even and quit throwing the ball at me.  

After numerous run-ins with these people in a very short time, I was feeling very weary and found it hard to “let it go”.  I had contentious dreams last night and woke realizing that I had held onto the  ball that had been thrown at me.

I had an interesting thought. I could see myself holding this ball and realized how heavy it was weighing on me. I imagined myself in water and knew that the weight of the ball was drowning me. I felt that as I ask my Heavenly Father and his Son, Jesus Christ, to help me let go of the hurt and stress, I’ll feel much better, be able to realize the weight and rise to breathe above the water.

Drowning in hurt is not fun. I’m working on getting rid of the heaviness that weighs me down.